I try hard to put on a happy face. Most days I am happy. Truth is-I have used Instagram as a way to escape my life. It is such a pretty place, Instagram. Filled with beautiful people and places. Getting lost in instagram fills me with hope sometimes, so I go there…to instagram-land.

 Mom of Girls, All Girls, We are all girls, Me and my ladies 

I love my family so much, so let me explain. A couple of years ago we made a move from Atlanta to VA, just outside Washington DC for my husbands job. We left behind a lot. We started our family in Atlanta, our first and second girls were born there. We had an adorable home and really wonderful friends that filled me always. We could walk so many places and my boutique was 1 mile away from my home. The weather was Warmer and the sun shone alot. We loved our church (Andy Stanley was our pastor) southern food….I could go on for days.

Every day I would get dressed up. I co-owned a boutique and I needed to look the part for my customers. I would have buying meetings with vendors and go to New York for my big buying trips. I had a part time nanny which was SO nice (super helpful). I went to work, the gym, and then I went out a couple nights a week out with Girlfriends, my husband and other couples. I LOVED my life. 

 
Then came the move. IT was inevitable. The lease was running out on my boutique in a few months and my husband had been offered a Vice President position with a small business. I was so worried about moving because everything was so comfortable in Atlanta. BUT we made the move. And let me tell you, since then…I have been clinging to our old life. 
 
I started my blog as a way to preserve the woman I had become.   I was afraid I would loose her if I did not do something.  What I love is Style, Community, and Fun (all things about Instagram). I don’t mind being behind the camera and I love LOVE getting dressed up. I thought, I should do this blog thing because why not? Well it has definitely been a challenge, and SO tough. There has been such little reward. I struggle with being real you guys. Because to me, the gram is not. So I Choose to pretend…and here I am. Mom of three, Most days covered in throw up. I forget to brush my teeth….alot. My house is a mess. My head spins with all that I need to get done and I barely accomplish half of my list each day. 
 
You see, I struggle with being a mom sometimes. IT IS so hard. AND not glamorous. Most days, are not great…most days I want to just forget the old me because it makes me so sad when I think about her. 
 
So now I am searching for some life direction! I have been taking some time off from Instagram and the blog because though the leopard coat a part of my fashion journey, truth is right now, I am just a mom y’all and my kids need me! 
 
Thanks for taking the time to read, I would love some honest talk and feedback!
 
Nicole
 

3 Comments on Truth is: I am just a mom

  1. Thanks for sharing Nicole! It’s nice when people are real when everything we see is fake , really so many people are just so consumed with self glorification on Instagram that naturally it makes everyone find themselves in a position where we compare and feel bad about ourselves. That’s the danger of Instagram. First of all…your statement “just a mom” is the problem! No woman is “just a mom” .. that’s you’re calling! It’s a huge job to be a Mom! You are a wonderful mom , wife , sister & daughter. Think about this – what does fashion & material things mean when it is all said and done ? What impact does it have on someone’s life ? You are not where you are by accident .. you were called to be a Mom of 3 beautiful girls , and to be a helpmate to your awesome husband.. your willingness to be the wife God called you to be is admirable and not unnoticed. When we trust that the Lords hand is on everything in our lives we can rest assured that every season has a purpose and plan. The rough seasons are when we see God move. I believe it’s the start of something amazing coming! He knows your desires , every little detail. You have a heart for fashion and he’s going to use that for the next chapter in your life for something big.. more than you can imagine. You are not where you are by accident or by mistake. Seek the Lord for the next chapter, if something you are pouring your heart into isn’t working than it’s time for a shift. When one door closes , he is opening another door for you. He doesn’t leave his work unfinished. Your selflessness as a wife and mother is pleasing to the Lord. He he an amazing plan for you and your talents that he has given you!

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